wide awake

the last couple of days have been really intense. i have never had a series of events one after the other and all of them giving me a different perspective on life. all of them making me think about me and what i am doing with my life.

i woke up this morning thinking let me take a break from my early morning walk routine and just catch up on some sleep. the problem with having a routine is that its tough to break it. so at 6.45 i couldnt take it anymore and got out of bed and at 7 the tv was on. i was channel surfing and ended up on star movies. a movie called wide awake had just started and the minute i see movies about schools and life and love and stuff, i tend to watch.

the movie was about a handsome young boy studying in a school trying to figure out life. he was in the 5th grade and you would expect him to be doing fun things with his class mates and even i expected the movie to be fun and easy watching. things suddenly started happening. he is really close to his grandfather and then he realises that he grandfather has bone marrow cancer. a couple of weeks later he passes away. thats when Joshua (the young boy) goes on a mission to find out where God is. his reason is to check with God on whether his grandfather is alright. its amazing how he moves from different emotions of loss, to fear, to acceptance. it gets even more intense when he finds his best friend Dave having an epileptic attack. the same friend who thought Joshua's mission to find God was stupid suddenly tells him that maybe its a good mission. Dave changes his opinion because he thinks that it would not be possible for Joshua, to have walked in and seen Dave having an attack and inform everyone and therefore get medical help, if it wasnt for God....

what did the movie do for me? it showed me that if you have a mission that you want to accomplish, you should not think about others who try to pull you down by calling what you believe to be important, stupid.....it showed me that the answers come and they come in time......it showed me that its ok to care for people, to really love with all of your heart.....it showed me that a pat on the back and a hug really helps.....it showed me that even if someone hurts you, you should just forgive them....you should not laugh at them when they are down.......someday you will be down and you would need help to be pulled back up....

Joshua A. Beal: Before this year bullies were just bullies for no reason, weirdoes were just weird, and daredevils weren't afraid of anything. Before this year, people I loved lived forever. I spent this year looking for something and wound up seeing everything around me. It's like I was asleep before and finally woke up. Know what? I'm wide-awake now.

the bomb came at the end of the movie when the credits were rolling....the movie was directed by Manoj Night Shyamalan.....