thoughts

i was just scrolling down and looking at old entries that i have made. there are words someone else has written which made sense to me so i put them up, then there are random thoughts that i had based on my state of mind, there are questions that had no answers, there are moments of happiness, there are these all time lows and the only place i could vent them out was here, there are videos of songs, there are original compositions that had no tune, there are days when i have made more than one entry, there are old memories, there is so much of stuff that is there and i know that i will look back and read all this when i am 60.

its so easy to look back and impossible to see what lies ahead. i have this faith that seems to be growing within me, it keeps me going when everything around me tells me that i dont fit in.

i just figured something a couple of minutes ago. i realised that everything that i have ever wanted, i have never gotten. the things i didnt were 'easy pickings' hahaha. i smashed the ones i didnt want out of my life, most of them never came back, the ones that hung around, i still dont care for......crazy how this behaviour of mine has been that way as far as i can go back.......

looks like its going to be another crazy night.

The staunchest tree is not found in the shelter of the forest, but out in the open where the winds from every quarter beat upon it, and bend and twist it until it becomes a giant in stature.