i woke up at 6 this morning and was back in bed at 8.30, thats because i had nothing better to do. the good thing is that i caught up with sleep the bad thing is that i had planned last night that i would go cast my vote today. its 6.30 p.m now and obviously that plan didnt happen.
why am i so disinterested in making the most of my life outside of work? there is nothing thats driving me to do things, anything. i am invited for scotch and dinner to a friends place tonight and i dont plan on going there. i am instead sitting making this blog entry and listening to joss stone.
there is something thats troubling me and i kind of know what it is. i think i need someone with whom i can share my life. i think i want to wake up to the smell of the person i love. i think i want to feel the softness of someones body next to me when i go to sleep and when i wake up.
this morning i imagined myself sitting with a girl, running my fingers through her hair, feeling her face so close to mine, touching her soft shoulders, enjoying every moment, talking, feeling so close that we could actually be one, there was some amazing music playing in the background, life felt complete, i felt complete....
i know i will find that someone one day who will love me as much, until then i dont think i should shut myself up, so what if its just me....
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