End

the first time today i felt good watching something come to an end. i hate when things end but today watching the last episode of OC was so different. yes there was a lump in my throat because a lot is left to your imagination about what happens at the end of anything, this end however was different, they showed a couple of things that happened, ryan does become an architect, sandy does start teaching, seth does marry summer, ryan tries to help a kid who seems in trouble, just the way sandy did with him. it was brillant to watch......

i have always had this urge to find out how my end would be. i have wished that my life was in a book in some library and i could just borrow it and turn to the last page. i have wished that so badly and yet today i dont care. i am freeing myself of the future, its not in my control and i want to just let it go tonight......

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here


i want to move from where i am in my head right now to a place which makes me say 'yes this is what i always wanted!!!'
i want to wake up every morning and thank God for giving me another day,
i want to say the right things, at the right time
i want to hope for a better tomorrow
i want to stop looking forward to weekends, everyday is as important
i want to meet more people
i want to see more cities
i want to speak my mind
i want to learn new things
i want to give a helping hand
i want to share
i want to think about others and not me
i want to be high
i want green grass and blue skies
i want still seas and endless beaches
i want clean air
i want a better environment
i want ALL this and more forever and ever.........