OHFUCKOHFUCKOHFUCK

Prateek: hehehehehe
Prateek: on life
Prateek: on work
Prateek: on everything
Prateek: no clue where i am headed
Shaheen: wow..... i got u at the right time didnt i???
Prateek: hahahahaha
Shaheen:
Shaheen: chill da....
Prateek: let me not rub off my mood on you
Prateek: sorry
Shaheen: its not worth losing so much sleep over things that arent in our control
Prateek: thats the problem
Prateek: i am not in control
Prateek: and i so need to be
Shaheen: talk to me buddy...
Shaheen: is it a lady?
Prateek: no no
Shaheen: job then?
Prateek: its just a funny mood i have been since the year started
Prateek: its like i know i can make my life better
Prateek: and i can keep moving up in life
Prateek: but suddenly i dont have any reason to do that
Prateek: so i am giving up
Shaheen: but u are holding back??
Prateek: i am only reacting to things that happen at work
Prateek: not being proactive
Prateek: not wanting to do more
Prateek: not enthu about it
Shaheen: aahhh.... politics at the office getting to u?
Prateek: there isnt any
Prateek: they depend on me for a lot of things
Shaheen: then ?
Prateek: i am imp in the company
Prateek: its just my attitude
Shaheen: u feel ur taken for granted?
Prateek: yes that could be it
Prateek: i think thats it
Prateek: at work and socially as well
Shaheen: u need a pat on ur back & ur not gertting any?
Prateek: YES
Prateek: OH FUCK
Prateek: super shaheen
Shaheen: hahahhaha
Prateek: i dont do stuff for recognition
Shaheen: i told u.... im good at this!
Prateek: but now its just gettign to me
Prateek: oh man you are good
Shaheen: im sure da.... but everyone wants a little acknowledgent at some time
Prateek: and i cant ask
Prateek: becos thats not me
Prateek: but what if it doesnt come
Prateek: i dont know if its just work sha
Prateek: i think its also this whole feeling of not having accomplished anything
Shaheen: ur folks at home?
Prateek: no no
Prateek: they are chilled
Prateek: i have been working for so long
Prateek: and i have nothing to show for it
Shaheen: i think its loneliness....
Prateek: i dont know daaa
Prateek: sometimes i am alone
Prateek: sometimes i just try to meet friends and hang out and get drunk
Shaheen: maybe ur missing a special someone
Shaheen: someone u can share ur soul wth
Prateek: see friends are there
Prateek: but you cant share like everything with them right
Shaheen: no.....not freinds da...... u need a girl friend
Prateek: hmmm
Prateek: i dont know if i am built for relationships
Prateek: i am too much of a loner
Shaheen: i guess u cant handle the loner bit james....
Shaheen: everyone needs somebody...
Prateek: i push people away da shaheen
Prateek: at some point
Shaheen: why ?
Shaheen: what r u insecure abt?
Prateek: its not insecurity
Prateek: why do you say that?
Shaheen: well i presumed it coz maybe ur not confident abt urself......?
Shaheen: u think u arent capable of handling a relation?
Prateek: i think i can
Prateek: but i have never had the urge to
Shaheen: maybe then u need to just talk to someone....
Shaheen: so now that im here.....talk buddy...
Shaheen: and dont worry....i wont get pushed away...
Prateek: thanks
Prateek: its some mechanism inside that makes me stop
Prateek: as soon as i get close
Prateek: and then start saying ohshit ohshit ohshit
Prateek: what next