1. i quit smoking. something i thought i would never do. it took me a couple of attempts but last year it came from inside of me. i just knew i had to.
2. my career took a nosedive in 2002, life itself took a nosedive at the same time. i picked myself up, worked really hard and slowly crept back to where i am now.
3. i have loved with all of my heart, twice.
4. i have looked into the eyes of pain and given a pat on the back and said 'its going to be alright, just hang in there'
5. 'No' is a word that i use like a miser
6. money has never meant anything to me. its there today and gone tomorrow.
7. i have been an extremist, i dont understand the inbetweens, i cant sit on the fence.
8. listened and dived into every song that i have liked. made them mine. after all they pull me up when i was down, taken me to places so beautiful that i cant help but just have a smile on my face.
9. taken deep breaths of fresh air. let it into the corners of my lungs from where they got pushed to every part of my tired body, so i can stand up again and know that this life is worth it.
10. given voice to the the weak because no one cared to care. i am where i am because someone decided to help me. it just needs to be given back
11. believed that there is a God and He has created me. that He controls everything and i just need to trust.
12. let go. sometimes when i shouldnt have....
13. i was told once by my dad that the only thing he wants from me is to see me do better than him...i am working on that and soon i will.....if it makes him proud i will make it happen.
14. thrown pride out the window. it held me back, it made me difficult to be with and now i dont have too much of it.
15. given away what i own but dont use. i hate when such things pile up and are of no use to me but just occupy space
16. life started making sense in the last 4 years. i have grown as a person. understood things a lot more than i used to. i think turning 30 did a lot to me. this change got me closer to being a man
17. been there for people when they needed me. with my presence and nothing more, just listening and not talking.
18. lived on the money i earned, ever since my first job.
19. bought my first car later than everyone i know, bought my second car recently and gave away my first to my parents because i wanted them to drive something better than their trusted reliable fiat premier.
20. been spontaneous most of my life. believed that that answers are within me and i just need to look inside and find them and act on them.
21. had a lot of weed and hash and created a new, pretty, laid back world for me, where everything you touched would turn to gold, where everyone you met was pretty, where conversations took a lifetime to complete but had meaning, when you couldnt lie and lowe flowed out without inhibitions
22. had a lot of alcohol. enough to stay in the blood stream for weeks together. it was the only way that the world would make sense and coming home to an empty bed didnt matter because i was too drunk to think.
23. cried because i couldnt control it. doctor zhivago, you got mail, sleepless in seattle, cast away, taare zaamen par, silsila, arth, masoom, pyaasa, mr. and mrs. 55, kaagaz ke phool.....in real life situations, when things seem to go beyond my control and i have felt helpless.
24. learnt from my mistakes. God knows there have been a few. every step that i have taken has been an experience.
the list is longer but for now these things are important to me. i know one thing for sure I'm gonna get my kicks before the whole shithouse goes up in flames
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