Me

i just did a search for that word on google. it gave me the weirdest results.

as usual i was back on this quest of finding answers to the million questions in my head. the good thing is that everytime i do that, i knock off a few questions off the list :-)

what got answered today was the fact that what i do and say matters. i always underestimate myself and what i mean to people. i used to think that the only way i would know whether i am liked by someone is when they walk up to me, look me in the face and say it.

today a friend of mine told me a lot about me. it was amazing to hear everything that was said. the exact same things that i thought needed to be worked on, were the things that were liked the most. it was really weird. it made me realise that not everyone is going to like me the way i am. i have been around for 32 years now and there are characteristics about me that aint gonna change.

at the same time i have these limitations. there are just some things that need to go and two of them i am working on currently:

1. thinking too much
2. being stuck up

i just need to keep polishing off the rough edges, slowly slowly. HAHAHAHA funny how i keep saying a lot of things to my friends, i need to work on the slowly slowly catch the monkey funda...........it does work :-)