there are certain things in life that you get used to. these are habits. some are good and some are bad. i like the good and i try to filter out the bad.
everyones life is about all the things that happen to them. most of time its about people. people who are in your life. people who you share everything with. they know what is going on in your head. sometimes it reaches a level when you dont need to say anything and its still known. they know you, the real you.
then time passes. the funny thing about space is that it grows bigger if you let it. i used to think that space is a good thing. we need room to breathe right. it suddenly gets very crowded inside your head and outside. there are so many thoughts that are just racing around and you need to go to your quiet place and be there for a bit before you are ready to face life again. i want to so badly change this. i have realised that the more space you give the further away you go. distance fucks it all up.
guess its not under my control. i always come back to the fact that i should not change myself. if its not me thats moving away then its not my fault. the other fact is that i hate the blame game. i dont want to ever be the one blamed for moving away. how do i get that balance? its not easy.
hiro can bend space and time. that would be a cool thing to do but i think i want to be like Matt. i want the ability to know whats going on in everyones head. this is all possible on tv, for now i just need to ask and get the answers :-)
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