Connecting the dots....

so supposedly you can look back at your life and connect the dots that lead you to where you are. i thought that was like a brilliant insight but i just realised that the idiot who made that statement didnt tell us that it only works for someone like him!! wish i could tell him what i think. so yeah there are dots! so yeah you can connect them! the problem is the line they form!!! thats something that no one talks about. well i am going to talk about it today! the line goes up and comes down and goes back and goes forward and then sometimes the line becomes a blooming circle!!! the last couple of months all i have been doing is trying to focus on work and earning shitloads of money. i just realised today that i have been the biggest fool! the arseholes who dont work and dont do as much business as you, get to be a part of the CEO Club! they cant have a conversation with a client! they cant close a deal!! they get to go to Hawaii!!! and spend 3 days with your freaking CEO!! thats something i was working towards and i feel like shit right now for being passionate about the company that i work for and for giving work my best shot!! for getting into office at 8.30 every freaking day!! for working late!! for working on weekends!! for doing all the fucking dirty work!!! and all this to be told that some mother fucker gets to be part of the CEO club!! thats just plain fucked up! so guess what i have told myself! i will try even harder this year!!!! hahahahahhahahahahahhahaha hello everyone, myself LOSER!!!! come fuck me in my arse!!! BLOODY DOTS!! maybe at the end when i do connect them it will actually read LOSER!!!!!!!! over and fucking out of here!!!