its not about me

this morning gave me an answer that i have been searching for a long long time. i got up at 6:30 and just sat at the edge of my bed and said 'oh fuck!!! its not about me!!!'

i dont know where that change happened, i was a person who used to give others importance and this slowly changed to a 'me first' attitude.

i went back to the days when i didnt think too much, used to go everywhere, be with everyone, never said no, made people laugh, didnt think of the consequence, was always happy, slept well at night, danced from the time i got into a party till i was the last one on the floor, drank like a fish, walked around the block, sat on a park bench and watched the world go by.

i am going back to making it about others and not me, thats who i was and thats what made my life worth it.......