New Beginnings

just moved out of myspace. i like new beginnings. unfortunately i am always worried about how long they will last. life has reached a point where things just dont move forward after a certain period of time. do i end it abruptly. yes i do. its so easy to find fault and cut off. i am getting good at it. its scary i know and i need to figure out how to change this internal wiring of mine. funny thing is that once i get out of there it still remains in my mind. what if? if ony i had......

things are so complicated sometimes and i make them more complicated in my head. what do i want.......what am i here......there has to be a purpose......i want to live every day of my life as if it were my last....i want to love.....i want to care......i want to be me........

why is it that everytime i try doing all these things i stop half way and start thinking. i was driving back home earlier today and wondering why people are the way they are. the fact is that i cant change people. i can only say whats on my mind and leave the rest to fate.

The miles are getting longer, it seems, The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.I'm going home.

Be careful what you wish for,'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all.....