what do i want?

most time I  don't realize what I want when its staring me in the face. its only later when I move on that things start becoming clearer. so clear that I want to rewind and start over. thats never an option. so the plan is to act fast. thats when the fun starts! I am not used to it and then its so rushed that its almost always wrong!

so here I am wondering how to live my life. the way I always did? or make the change for the better. then it dawns on me, the moment passed because it wasn't meant to be! its just that simple. I don't need change. what I want is what I want and I am going after it. if its to sit and not do anything, so be it. if its getting up and pulling the guns out, so be it.

Bows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way

I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way

But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away

I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way

Oh but now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost but something's gained
In living every day

I've looked at life from both sides now
From WIN and LOSE and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all