limbo

i am in this funny state of limbo today. just sitting and wondering what to do next. my work is cut out for today but yet i dont feel like starting anything. its like an evil wish that if i dont do what i am supposed to do, what will happen?? i am sometimes so scared of outcomes that i just get into this state of limbo where everything just freezes. so today i want to not think of the outcome. i just want to do whatever i feel like. tasks that do not require any thought. a walk, a chai, a drive, window shopping, sitting in a road side cafe, staring endlessly into space and just moving from a state of limbo into a state of bliss.....yeah thats what i want....